It's time again for my yearly birthday letter to you.
You turned three this year, which means we technically made it through the 'terrible twos'. While most of the year was pretty easy, there were some very trying times when you tested your limits with your dad and me. We were constantly trying to teach you right from wrong or keep you from hurting yourself as you demanded your independence. I admit that those times were a struggle, but somehow...you always made up for it with your sense of humor and that amazing giggle.
Are you the best behaved child I have ever seen...? Well, no. You are stubborn, determined, focused and you have your own agenda - which is sometimes hidden to everyone but you. You want things your way and are often a little impatient and demanding. Most of the time when you are in trouble it is for not listening...you want to be the one to make the decisions.
In other words...you are a leader.
That is what I see when I look at you now. I don't see a wallflower..a 'cookie-cutter' child. Hailey, your personality is too strong to be a follower. I see a child unafraid of new things, a child who is not going to be satisfied until she has tried everything for herself. You will never want to sit by and watch things happen, you will be in the middle of life, waving your arms around screaming.
- Is your behaviour sometimes tiring or embarrassing? Sure it is...you're three years old.
- Are there moments when your dad and feel completely overwhelmed? Absolutely!
- Am I proud of who you are becoming? Yes I am...every second of the day.
- Do I love you regardless of your behaviour? Words alone could never express how much I love you.
Even though you like to push your limits, you are also a very loving and caring child. You love your friends and family and are gentle with all the animals you meet. The polite and sweet side of your personality is just as strong as your independent half. You show your tenderness often and sometimes unexpectedly - these moments stand out for me like precious jewels in my memory. The simplest hugs and cuddles are more important to me then I ever dreamed possible.
You do so much for yourself now, that every triumph is somehow also bittersweet as well. Every thing you learn to do for yourself is exciting and exhilarating, and one less thing you need me for. Sometimes I feel like I can watch you grow before my very eyes and I'm often torn between excitement and sadness.
So now you are three, and I have a much better feel for what to expect this coming year: tantrums and arguments, bittersweet moments of independence, embarrassment, frustration, intense laughter and love beyond anything I have ever felt before.
I Love you Hailey Bug!
-Momma
