3:00 'Antsies'

Lately, I have had a better time dealing with being a working mom than I did in the beginning. Daycare is going so well that any nervousness I may have felt before is gone. I still take myself for a guilt trip every so often because I am not there for her, but generally things have been o.k. concerning my return to the workforce.

However...

everyday at 3:00, this crazy sensation comes over me and all I can think about is going and getting my daughter and going home. I get an extreme case of the 'Late Afternoon Baby Antsies':

I fiddle with a pen and look at her picture on my desk.

I put the pen down and flip my stack of Post-it Notes.

I look at the other picture of her on my desk.

I put down the Post-its and pick up the foam pig on my desk (don't ask).

I pound it's snout into my chair and wait for my screen saver of Hailey pictures to pop up.

It's like a madness that comes over me. The clock in the corner of my computer screen stops....moving....entirely. I cannot wait for 5:00 to come. Its worse than Christmas when I was 8 years old. Its worse than waiting for my bagel to pop out of the toaster in the morning...AHHH! Forget 'Generation X' - I am part of the 'Instant Gratification Generation' and I want my baby NOW!

I used to linger a little at work. Check e-mail one last time, then finally start shutting things down at 5:00. Nope, not any longer....I shut down at 4:50 and I am starting my car by 5:01.

Who would have thought that something so small could get me off my lazy butt and get moving as fast as I do? Babies, I've learned, are great motivators!